the final show

wow. i haven't watched in so long. i haven't even listened in weeks. you know how you go through phases? i was in the other phase, so the whiplash from being back in was crazy. i didn't expect to feel so big. the filming and direction was amazing. seeing her in the lover era all i could think about was how gorgeous she looked. the way she walked around the stage, she is THE taylor swift. as we went through the songs i had a new appreciation for them, like it was the first time i listened and not the 1000th. when the camera was on her face as she strutted down the stage to the cruel summer bridge was everything. listening to lover made me remember how perfect of a love song it is. the dancers during the song just make it even more incredible.

fearless is probably one of my favorite tour eras. it feels so nostalgic and magical. when she first comes out and mouths "ily" to her bandmates, the ones who have been there since the beginning. ugh. fearless is just love and happiness. the entire era is just her and her band dancing around the stage and it feels so real. you can feel her happiness.

the red era isn't my favorite on tour bc its just the chorus of the singles over and over. but the joy from everyone, especially the hat reciever makes it perfect. atw10mv is exactly what the show needed. i'm so glad she sang it. i remember screaming like eyes bugging out screaming the entire song.

speak now, i wish there was more. sparks fly performed in the same style of fearless era would have been iconic. its the same vibe, so i understand why she only sang enchanted. i wish my show was one with long live.

big! reputation! it totally brought me back to rep tour. just as intense and spicy. she HIT those notes in don't blame me. i am obsessed with the production and set for look what you made me do. the visuals of the snake during the transition is soo good.

folkmore my baby. i think when she sang betty it was one of the best moments of the tour. the song is perfect, its playful, nostalgic, romantic, longing. running across the stage during august is how i imagine my popstar dream. hearing the applause after champagne problems.. i cant even describe it. seeing the "i made it" look in her eyes. i would scream forever so she never forgets how much all this means to me. this era is perfect, from the passion of illicit affairs to the theater of witchy woo willow.

1989 aka pop bible perfection. how fun is it to just have fun? the golf clubs, the bikes, the black and white cityscape. whenever i hear style now i do the shoulder shimy.

ttpd, my true love, the melancholy is showing. ive already alluded to my love for this set. a true masterful performance, from who's afraid to smallest man to broken heart. such themed performances that make you feel the song and the lyrics deep in your bones. i watched on my phone so many liovestreams in awe. seeing this on an actual screen was what i have been waiting for.

i remember when i first heard the new years day long live mashup in the rep movie. i cried. nyd hs always been that song for me, a beautiful love song about making memories that will last forever. and long live, the song about the fandom, something that perfectly encapsulates our love for taylor, her love for music, and how we are all just young and dumb but having the time of our lives. then add in the manuscript, a reflection over the eras, over how life has changed over time, over the last 17 years of music with taylor. all together is magic.

last but not least, midnights. the ending, seeing everyone on stage together getting emotional and soaking in thos last few moments of what has been the biggest tour to ever exsit, to touch to many people around the world. it makes me so emotional because i can imagine being a part of something like that, i want to be part of something like that. so. bad. it makes me think about dance, a life time ago. after a year of being with the same people 15+ hours a week after school, working harder than you've ever worked, connecting so hard to what you are doing, performing over and over again on some of the biggest stages, winning awards. doing it again. then the year ends, you graduate. you were part of something and now you're not. and that is such a small scale. imagine the scale taylor, the band, the dancers are on. imagine that come down. i can imagine it, i can put myself in their shoes, i can feel how much it hurts so i cry. and i cry for them, for being a part of something and for that something ending. for being on the other side of it, for experiencing the most perfect day and then it being over, for singing in a crowd of 80k people who know exactly how you feel, for it to end. for it to be over forever.

thank you, taylor, for giving us this